“Do you want to not make plans with me?”

“Do you want to not make plans with me?”

You know what I mean; just hanging out with no set agenda for the day, choosing to spend time together doing whatever if ever. I can think of a few people I could do this with and there aren’t that many really. Some are here, a few in the past, and one more whom I thought would be best, is no longer around. Not that it matters now, and time has its way with things and with people (mostly people actually). It’s not really what you do in a day that matters, someone used to say this to me, but who you do it with. It’s not how you do that is important, but why you do it.

So why not? Why not just decide to do anything. ANYTHING. The first thing that comes to mind.

Baking (really? another food thing? I’m bonkers about food, yes perfect excuse, thank you very much).

Why baking? Let me think …

… think …

still thinking …

Mmm…. I once made brownies, from scratch no less and the saddest thing happened to it. It was unwanted. It just sat there, on my kitchen countertop, all hot and with that oven fresh air peppering all around it. I topped up the first slice with a manly amount of icing. Yes, it was manly. Enough to send a man to his knees… haha. Aight, I digress. That first slice of it, it just sat there, on it’s plate, dressed to the nineties. Looking all perfect and ready to kill anyone’s diet.

And it died. It just died right there, on my kitchen countertop. Yes, it was tragic. And I have never baked again since.

So there, perhaps that’s why I thought of baking. So there’s the WHY now. Now for the ‘who’ part. And if I can rightly find the who to do this with, I might just be able to find nothing to do, with this who… with! Does it work this way?

Be Soft.

Do not let the world make you hard.

Do not let the pain make you hate.

Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.

Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree,

you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

 

~ Kurt Vonnegut

 

昴 ~ 谷村新司

Yes yes …. feeling melancholic on a Monday evening.

I think back & figure I have liked this song for over two decades. Thereabouts…. Wow, I am bloody old now. Pathetic…. old and blabbering to no one but myself. Just so for the record, here are the lyrics. Ever so moving.

I’m a sucker for the written word. It’s a curse that I hardly forget anything I have heard.

“… 息をすれば胸の中 木枯らしは吠き続ける
されど我が胸は熱く 夢を追い続けるなり …”

Yes, I am just another speck of cosmic dust. Unable to even glimmer. The universe in it’s huge expanse, ever so humbly going the path it must and giving all of itself, only to shatter and burn itself out. But so great it was while it exists.

Is this existence worth it?

Never Know

 

This song has been around for some time now. There’s good reason it’s still playing regularly on my iPod. The lyrics ring true, the vocals are crisp and clear. Simple song writing carried with the ernest vocals in this song really appeal to me. I’m a sucker for good lyrics. I’m a sucker for good scripts in movies…. heck, my one favourite movie is still Sense & Sensibility. I think ….. I’ve watched it no less than twenty times.

Aight, off to bed for me.

… before that … lyrics to this song follows. All rights as acknowledged.

衛蘭 (Janice) - Love Diaries - Never Know (Duet with 李治廷)

作曲:雷頌德
填詞:雷頌德
編曲:雷頌德
監製:雷頌德

>Aarif
I see the world, I've had enough
Nothing seems to last
Happiness drifting away so fast
Everyday I just kneel down and pray
Pray for the day

>Janice
Stay by my side
I'm willing to give up my life
You gave away my pride

>Aarif
So you don't have to cry

>Janice
If you know just give me a sign

>Aarif
Darling if you love me 
Can I be your only one

>Janice
You're the one who warms me 
you're like the sun

>Aarif
You just bring me so much fun 
nothing undone

>Janice
No matter what you've done
Darling don't you know
I am never gonna run

>Aarif
So why should I still have to pretend and run

>Janice & Aarif
Other ones won't know
Will never know

>Aarif
I see the world, I've had enough
Nothing seems to last
Loneliness I never wish to have
Everyday I just kneel down and pray
Pray for a way

>Janice
Stay by my side
I'm willing to give up my life
you gave away my pride

>Aarif
I'm always by your side
>Janice
If you know just give me a sign

>Aarif
Darling if you love me 
Can I be your only one

>Janice
You're the one who warms me 
You're like the sun

>Aarif
You just bring me so much fun 
Nothing undone

>Janice
No matter what you've done
Darling don't you know
I am never gonna run

>Aarif
So why should I still have to pretend and run

>Janice & Aarif
Other ones won't know
Will never know